This painting is a piece of a series from last year. In this series I tried to capture everyday movements in a moment which looks weird as a single image. I wanted the painting not to communicate directly with the viewer but function as a window. The viewer can look through this window and be part of an intimate situation which makes the painting honest and personal. Like this the viewer and I can evolve some special kind of communication – I can share myself with her/him without lashes.

Two years ago I suffered a great loss. Later I laughed about it: I am like a cockroach, I’d survive anything. But this event made me remember: nothing is permanent. Anybody and anything can disappear from our lives all of a sudden. 
 The idea of death is the scariest thing for me. So I started to paint portraits of my dearest ones, imagining they were dead. This is Lili, she is one of my best friends for 15 years now, and I would be very sad if she would die.
The image captures our existence. If there is an image of you, you exist for sure. Even if the person dies, the images are forever, so somehow we can survive death with making images.